Do you ever just look around and realize you have nothing?
Like your life somewhere fell apart and you can’t figure how it all went wrong?
It’s like I just woke up and it all hit me
So much it overwhelmed me to the point I can’t breathe or think
I don’t know anything anymore
So I’m getting pretty pissed right now. Because I write to write and get the thoughts out. I use my tumblr. And lately my friend has been all mean and judgmental
And it’s everything. Like stop, I’m getting it out. I wrote about my assistant and how I felt like whatever leave me alone It was in my head how boring work is without him.
I can say and do what I want and this should be my private space to vent my feelings. Fuck. I’m gunna make a new blog
I don’t get horny anymore cause I miss him and get depressed so I fuck people over and talk to them and get them all excited just so I can have them tell me I’m hot but I never see them in person or anything cause I don’t want to do anything I have no desire to. I only want him and I can’t so I’m over it
I shaved my leg and didn’t realize I cut myself and it Won’t stop bleeding and there’s blood everywhere and I wanna cut so badly. I’m on the bathroom flooring shaking holding toilet paper to my ankle and little puddles of blood are around me. I won’t cut I won’t buy this isn’t fair at all